Sunday's nostalgic smell of rain

Hey

So I just watched Blue Valentine with Michelle Williams and Ryan Gosling ... tears 

Do you believe in love at first sight? I know ...  such a cheesy question. It's because of the movie. 
I mean, not just locking eyes. I mean having one conversation with a stranger, and after that little moment, you can’t stop thinking about them ... like they’re stuck in your skin. And it almost eats you alive.

I think if you’ve ever felt that, even once in your life, you’ve kind of already won.
But it can also go both ways, where you lose... heavily 

Anyway, about the movie. I was kind of disappointed with the alcohol abuse storyline. It could’ve gone deeper for me... I need worse.... But besides that: 10/10 for the acting. 
Especially the scenes when they were younger......  I really felt those

So yes, I would recommend it.

I love watching movies on Sundays.
Daytime is for catching up on everything I forgot or postponed during the week (or for hangovers)
Evening is for watching the sun go down, going on a solo walks and listening to music.
Night is for watching movies, alone or with someone else

Do you like to spend your Sundays alone? I think I do, but I’m not quite sure.
It has something peaceful to it,  like the world softens a bit. Other times it feels a little too quiet, and I get stressed or bored. 

I watched the movie while lying in Fien’s bed. There’s a window right next to it with a view that looks like a film set, or like a theater stage. (look at the picture) 

So there I was, half tucked under soft sheets, watching Blue Valentine, feeling the cold summer breeze come through the window. And omg it started raining super heavily.
I looked out at the stage like street where people started running, looking for shelter.
It only lasted 3 minutes.
And then that nostalgic after-rain-smell came..... magical 

I hope you had a good week and end it as peacefully as I did (in your own way) 

<Love3

goodbye

Coucou my fucking amazing friends,

What a couple of weeks, right... Life’s crazy. And so am I.

Yesterday I woke up and felt like I’d been hit by a bus. No joke ...  I grabbed my phone, saw my cracked screen, and everything came rushing back. I fell off a hay roll on Sunday morning… around 6 am to be precise.

It didn’t hurt at the time, but now that I think about it ....... it was actually pretty high. Apparently, my legs were up in the air like some kind of circus act. Anyway, I’m already feeling better (day 3 of the hangover, so we’re moving forward)

I’m looking at my camera roll trying to piece the past few days back together. Not curated park grass, but actual fields in Willebringen. Or just being in the garden grilling vegetables, barefoot, sunburnt, and my dad next to me making everybody cocktails. My inner farm girl is literally urging for the smell of cow shit and those dusty clouds that rise when a tractor drives by. Healing. 

Oh and it was my birthday last week? Or two weeks ago? Yes!
I had a blast. Thank you for coming and throwing me in the air, amazing. 

Now… I have so many questions to ask myself:

• Do I pursue my master’s degree??? (I don’t want to, tbh.)

• Do I look for a job?? Like… for real? Adult life 

• Where am I going to live???

• Do I get a navel piercing? (Like a small, minimal ring.)

• What am I going to wear tonight?

• Do I actually like avocado..... ???

• Is it finally time to get a new tattoo? or shoud I remove the other one first?

• ?

I'm spoiled 

Anyway, I’ve got two months to think about the first 3 , confident everything will be ok!

Excited, Happy, Full of Love, Slightly confused, Mildly unstable, but overall Glowing.

Take care - Love <3 

Sam 

A short one but not really

Hello la team! 

First of all: Nomas frozen margarita slapped me in the face :o On a cozy Tuesday golden-hour-night… like ?? wow. Sign me up for more.  

That being said ... I don’t have much to say or write… I mean ...  no ...  idk… my brain stopped working from all the fun chaos around me. I can’t think straight anymore. But also… honestly… I don’t think I ever did?

Anyway, I’m extremely excited for summer and I don’t even have a single plan.
But actually…:
I want to go on a hiking trip, 

sleep in the mountains, 

make a list of all the wild animals I saw, 

let my hair grow out, get sunburned, 

drink Aperol Spritz with a giant green olive on an Italian beach, 

eat delicious pasta and get constipated, 

cry from laughing, 

buy cheap trashy sunglasses in a tourist shop, 

girl talk so deep it opens a portal... like astral projection level, 

go skinny dipping at night / or early in the morning, 

jump from a cliff and get my feet cut on a sharp rock , 

wear a tiny bikini, + only flipflops (but first I need a pedicure),  

lay flat in a grass field and breath... living in 5D

I made a Summer 2025 playlist!  #dirtyasf# #eclectic very carefully curated (real music connoisseurs say it like that, no?) (little bit for everybody).... Stole some songs from your playlists… ok no...  just a couple dub tracks... strictly for educational purposes tho! I never had a barefoot, Jah-blessed era… I was the girl with the Longchamp bag, but secretly wanted a stretch earring. Missed out but also not.....  ...  brazilianphonk?? .... 

Also… my babyDJ era is finally starting. yes another one .... Get ready.

Little note: I hate: men in the summer.... the heat activates their clown behavior even more. Ils me testent grave ...  

 ++++ don't forget to buy your tickets for next weekend party !!!! we're celebrating my gemini birthday in ... oui ... bxl....! :) 

Be there.

bisous xx 

bedroom view 

Stay wild, stay you

Coucou la team,,, 

I woke up in my old room this morning, hoping my train to Paris would get cancelled...
Idk... maybe it was the first time I actually preferred staying in bxl over going back?
I sometimes forget how whole you make me. 
Could also be because Lieve was talking cute-morning-gibberish and I just wanted to crawl back into bed. 

It’s time to lock in.

I need to plan what I’m going to do with my life… yes… again,, a year ago feels like yesterday... : 

Study? or Work? 

Brussels? or Paris? 

Sweet? or Salty?

Croissant? or Pain au choc?

Journal the anxiety? or Scroll for 2 hours?

Cry or Romanticize? (same thing tbh) 

High school teacher? or Clown?

Pétanque? or Bowling alley (in the basement)? 

Little roommate rant intermezzo::::

It’s getting insane.
He sent me the most manic reply last week (most of you read it, but I won’t put it online because I’m 'decent' lol). It’s just way too much info and omg, so much self-pity.

Anyway. His little brother (30) is here and ... guess what .. he also has women problems. These men… like cmmon lads... get ur shit together. It’s driving me insane!! 

At first I was like, “ok tea, tell me everything,” but now it’s just getting sad..... Men… so so stupid.

I listen but stopped responding. 

Btw my coloc calls him Fucktard and I think it's genius,?? using this word from now on. fucktard. 

End of roommate intermezzo 

Feeling that Gemini energy?
I’m ready to leave my 24th year behind and start my 25th. I feel like my frontal lobe is almost done developing. You have no idea what’s coming..... neither do I ... but I do know you should listen to Phil Collins’ Another Day in Paradise more often....... you’ll see...... 

Stay wild, stay you 

On se capte bientôt! 

Bissouus 

#sam

@leuvenstation

Life lesson: .....

Coucou la mif, 

Its' spend money Friday! Are you spending? I am (early birthday gift pour #moi) 

Another blog where I talk about myself... c’est parti.. 

Recent / current/ future events: 

1. I've been having the most vivid dreams this week...  always right before I wake up.
And not the cute kind... they're all about me or my family dying. Like, this morning? I accidentally poisoned my whole family and myself... with my magnesium supplements... in the garden... wtf, right?

In the dream I kept not believing it, so I was stuck in this weird in-between state, trying to find a way to fix it or idk... I've been listening to sound bath playlists in the morning to calm my anxiety.

2. So, Romeo (my coloc) loves chicken and fries and I’m not going to say no to that.

He always tells me he hates wasting food yapayapayapa.... but valid, me too. obv :) 
So after dinner he puts all my chicken bones on his plate, checks if there’s still meat on them, and then nibbles my already nibbledchicken bones. ....  At the table, I didn’t really think much of it… I mean, not many things gross me out .... you really have to surprise me. :o 

But back in my room, alone with my thoughts, it hit me: that was actually kinda scary... ew, no?? 
Like… I don’t even know this man. We’re total strangers to each other. But still… idk.
Let me know what you think? Of this..... 

3. Last Saturday, my bracelet fell off my neighbours <3 Manon & Henri’s terrace. I went down to look for it. First, a bit of context: The building opens with a code, and once you’re through the first door, you can ring the apartment you need to get to. My phone was connected to the speaker upstairs +  for some reason I also left my ballerinas there, so I was barefoot…

Ok.... So I came downstairs and saw my bracelet, just on the edge of the sidewalk. I couldn’t reach it because I had to keep the door open because the code was on my phone. I spotted some 16–18 yo humans (in tracksuits and gucci attire) a few meters away soo I shouted..... "Eellooo! Vous pouvez m’aider s’il vous plaît !!! J’ai fait tomber mon bracelet!":(((( lol 

Just as I reached the guy’s hand holding my bracelet, I turned to go back in… and the door shut......
So there I was .... at Gare du Nord .... barefoot, in the middle of the night.
I can’t remember how long I was stuck there, but I felt every stare and heard every comment about my bare feet… and honestly..... they were right.

Anyway, one of the neighbors came home. Thank god. and for some reason I felt obligated to explain my situation but obviously he didn't care and just wanted to go in his apartment... 

I woke up ashamed the next day… fr… and I still think about it once maybe twice a day. 
I’m actually not kidding. You don’t know how it was down there... I need(ed) a hug 

4.  I went to Sacre coeur and it smelled like poop 

5. I love biking 

6. Going to see Toxe and New York tonight for the 12345 time (means I party a lot but whats new) 

7. Very excited for next week xxx 

Plein de love! biz 

 late night email from my 'boss' : I cried 

How is your brain doing?

Cc beautiful people, 

How are you? How have you been? Still alive and happy? 

Quel weekend right...? 

I'm feeling okay (mentally)! But wow .... no energy left. My body is so so sore… I need someone to walk over me, like actually fold my back in two... like a camping chair...  you get the feeling. Also.... I think someone bit me? Did someone bite my shoulder?... If so, please .... don’t do that anymore.... +  I’m still pulling black crumbs out of my nose… sorry.... but omg I had a blast ! I <3 you guys ! ur amazing . 

Yesterday, I left my crazy brothers’ and chosen sister’s mansion to take the train back to civilization (Paris). Suddenly the metro stopped running and everyone had to get out… I had already left a bit late and only had 20 minutes left.
As some of you know, I don’t do well in traffic. (Context: I’m really bad with directions and get easily distracted, so I usually don’t bike alone in the city.) This time I had no choice.... So there I was, riding like a chicken without a head through the city with two giant bags, dirty festival jeans, and muddy boots, trying to catch my train. Serpentskirt by Cocteau Twins was playing and it made it all so much more dramatic. 
I made it. Alive. No accidents.  So honestly, this means I can do anything now. It felt like I was going to throw up… but also like a boss. 

I genuinely can’t wait for my first Parisian road rage moment.... when I slam my hand on the roof of the car and say my first insult en français :) lol 

Anywayyy... I’m supposed to meet a girl later today for drinks. I’ve never met her in my entire life… but I think I’ll have to cancel because I’m so tired I might go non-verbal in a couple of hours.

It’s one of those days where I just want to lie flat on the ground all day .... Horizontal...  in my room, or in a park on the grass, idc where, just not my bed. I need a slightly hard surface.... maybe watch some TikToks? My feed is actually amazing right now, I’m literally lmfao.

What else…
Oh! I have a new favorite song. Actually two. Or maybe three. I could share them

....  

Well, this is what's going on in my head rn.... I hope everybody survives this week... you're not alone... 

Dikke kus xxxx 

old picture because my Icloud stopped updating 
and I miss Lieve

need 

A week in my life: Write It Down, Walk It Out

oy! 

Wth got my nails done yesterday and now I can't fucking type on my computer anymore... so sorry if this is a mess, I'm doing my best!! It was fun tho , she did my nails and I helped her pronounce au revoir. 

Anyways, it feels like ages ago, so here are some updates: 

My brain won’t stop spinning when I’m trying to fall asleep. yesterday it hit me! maybe it’s because I haven’t really written anything on my blog lately. It's like I need to exhaling all the clutter in my mind and give it somewhere else to live..... lol. So here it is, not my deepest thoughts but just something to put out into the world.

This morning I took a long bath (morning baths are the absolute best! write it down) and went to  Bourse de la Commerce. I wasn’t amazed, but got my portion of culture for the day. Did a little shopping, wandered around, sat in the sun (I love how the sun leaves freckles on my face when it touches me ... it feels like a kiss), called a few people. --- It was one of those calls where you literally can’t sit still and need to walk around, gesturing wildly with your hands even though they can’t see you...  Amazing.

Also: have you ever tried raw dog walking? Like, no music, no bag, no hoodie, no cap, no sunglasses. Just you. Hands down by your sides. Nothing else.

I think I might do it tomorrow. Just for the fun of it. To see what happens... vulnerably visible. One time in Brussels, I tried to look directly into the eyes of every single person who passed me. Lol. It was only few seconds everytime but .... yes... interesting, you should try it too? or whatever? 

.... 

I had dinner with my coloc for the first time last week (we both have super busy schedules + I was kind of avoiding it). We had pasta (of course) and talked about literally everything: politics, love, Elon Musk, moving, what I’d do if I had 250 million in the bank, work, Pete Davidson... etc..... Mostly it wwas him yapping, and me giving a quick answer before we jumped to the next topic. It’s actually really interesting... I never thought I’d become friends with a 38-yo man-child... but look at me now. 

Also, he’s deep in his crazy single era. He has a fixed hour to answer his Tinder/Hinge matches (which is after dinner) and tells me alllll about it (sometimes too much :((((( no filter). But I’m here for it!

I told my parents on the phone and they laughed. They’re coming to visit at the end of the month and I’m really excited :) I love entertaining people and planning little holiday visits here!

what else... oh they asked if I wanted to stay longer at the internship :))) and that we really work well together and that they like me at the studio.... my heart.... so cute! obv i'm going to say yes! This girl Anna, party planner Anna,  is a real boss omg, I think she's the coolest girl I have ever met. 

I'm going to watch the second season of the Severance now! lmk if you've wqatched it too, I need to talk about it. 

Lot's of love xxx 

Sam 

Morning