V-Important question !

Question: 

So when I was sick a month ago I had this strong urge to listen to trap music ,, specifically Young Thug ... (Slime Language & Beautifull Thugger Girls) 

Idk I think I want to know why this genre is giving me this kind of feeling ... like I'm waking up for the second time you know ... lol sounds deep ... It has to do with what?? combination melody/ drum pattern /... idk?  *please leave a comment or message me if you have an explanation.. can be anonymous*

I already looked it up on Reddit but they mostly talk about RL grime, Trance-Dreamlike, Dubstep- Rage and aggression, Hardstyle- Euphoria, House- dark and menacin (idk defuq that is) 
'Limeflavouredcement' described the feeling as: swagalisious. 

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Anyways ... I listen to Young Thug when I do my "daily" "mental health" walks now and let me tell you it's refreshing. also nobody will ever expect that i'm listening to: good pussy, good money, good genes, I just wanna sshhsjh you loveee, i'm the one that got you frank Chesteeers, i don't want the time be up yeah ... I don't wanna find new love

I would love to have the ability to switch to an autotune voice :o what if everybody had this? Imagine how the world would look like
Is young thug a father? probably.. lmk that too pls ! 

Ok well enjoy the last days of 2024, 25 will be better tho (needs to be). 
Love you, gros bisous, see you at the party—or next year. 

the BEST seats on the train!
vip places if you ask me 

crying eating and healing

I went to a new doctor well she's not really a doctor, I think she's a naturopath or a functional doctor. And o m g it was amazing she really gave so much clarity about what's going on in my body.

So, I've been struggling with my health for quite some time now, as some of you know. Over the last 4 months, I thought I was going insane. I’ve never experienced so much anxiety in my life—waking up scared (heart pounding out of my chest) and going to sleep scared (same story, plus thinking I would never fall asleep). On top of that, I developed sudden eczema, was crying all the time, and at the same time feeling so numb. omg, I cried so hard yesterday I choked on my Epsom salt and oat-infused bath water (disgusting). And the cherry on top: my body decided to stop doing number two. --> The worst.

It all comes down to one thing: the GUT. (i already knew this but apparently, not doing it right) + because of being stressed all the time and oh yes wtf I’ve been living with mold for 4 years now. So, I’m basically breathing in mold, which also makes you crazy (duh), and it fucks up your whole nervous system etc. 

Meaning... it’s just a toxic cycle: breathing in toxic air, my body responding to it (histamine), my gut not working properly to release the toxins, and instead producing even more... + starting to have allergies 

wow writing it out like this is so scary - filled with toxic :o 

First step: move out of the mold. That’s planned for February. For now, I’m going to focus on fixing my gut. That means I need to eat so much meat—aaa! I haven’t done that (really) in about 7 years or so. But my body has actually been craving it for the last few years, which says a lot. And it’s not just any meat—it has to be meat with the bone still on, because that helps repair the gut lining. 

Lesson: I know this might sound controversial, and a lot of people might disagree but be carefull when going to a 'classical' doctor... they just give you a bandage and don't always look into the real problem... 

Ok i'm done now ! 

Love you (I probably really do) and take care of yourself! 

Breakfast / Lunch 

The tea - loving experience

During the winter my body consist of  70% tea, 10% clementine, 10% blueberry, 5% idk, 5% seasonal depression  ;;; 

Tea makes my feel some type of way... Wrapping my hands around a big cozy cup, hearing the pour, inhaling the warmth. pure magic. 

I wish more people invited me over for tea. Imagine saying, “I’m coming over for tea” ....  how dreamy would that be...  I could be yours forever 

i love this cup! not mine tho

Ah my first tea of the day ... i wake up put on my peignoir and north face pantoffels and go to the kitchten to turn on the kettel.  ""thinking about putting a tea station on my night stand""

I like my tea in de morning on a empty stomach (not sure if that's healthy, but it gets things moving you know) I prefere green tea: sencha or matcha in the morning, it gives me that little boost to start the day.

After my energy tea it's time for a freshly cut ginger tea with or after my breakfast. Honestly i think it's my favourite. It works as a natural antibiotic and has a general anti-inflammatory effect on the body soo your immune system will loooove this! It's the spicyness for me 

During the day I mostly drink rooibos or nettle tea, these are also filled with antioxidants ! good for skin health too ... oh the red color of rooibos... j'adore ... oh i almost forgot 9 kräuter tea from Österreich, also sehr gut für dich !  (fyi: it's important to infuse these long enough) 

Post-dinner I drink a peppermint tea to help my digestion and reduce bloating. I have a love 'hate' relationship with this one. It does the job but it gives me toothpaste taste sometimes ... you know...  

When it’s freezing outside, I act like a 70 yo lady and go to bed at 8pm. aaaah I look forward to this moment all day  ( I do have a life during the summer)

... curling up under the covers and rewatch a movie or serie (i find comfort in rewatching things) and read my book,, yes yes yes. My final tea of the day must be chamomile! perfect to relaaaax and close my eyes after. !but be aware you'll have to go to the toilet during the night so drink it an hour before zzzzz time ! or something  

No sweets in my tea!!!! no no (maybe honey when i'm a bit sick but that's it) <3

Petite chair lore

My dear tiny petite chair 

I did read somewhere that people have this strange urge to smash tiny things, tiny chairs even… quel psychopaths. Little things are supposed to be cute and irresistible. Mmm, although I do get that weird urge to squeeze something that’s so overwhelmingly adorable, like a baby kitten or… ok wait, maybe I’m the psychopath now? NO. I would never actually do that (obviously). It's just a feeling.  I think it has something to do with a hormone we produce, oxytocin or something... but, don’t take anything I say too seriously. I’m just an online presence, trapped in the body of a girl.

mini tiny petite little chair 

... 

sticks

I’ve been staying more and more at my parents' house lately. I feel like I can protect my peace here a bit better, though I’m not sure if that’s really true. (It's a weird place between comforting and overwhelming)  I’ve been having some really strange dreams lately, and when I wake up, I’m wide awake, oh I hate that feeling of waking up wide awake... I like to cuddle my sheets and rub my feet against each other, you know? And looking in the mirror and not knowing if you are awake or asleep —like school mornings... horrible but so nostalgic.

Anyways, I went on a little hike today. My parents live in the countryside, so I like to come here to breathe some fresh air once in a while. i love breathing <3 

So, while I was walking in my black rubber boots with white polka dots (the ones I got when I was 14 —honestly, it’s a miracle they still fit), I came across a stick. It made me think of when I was a kid, hiking with my parents and brother. I always carried a stick twice my height while walking. I have picture of it somewhere. Yes, I was that weird introvert kid that could perfectly play on her own 'insane imagination you guys'. I will now apologize to all the kids I said no to when they asked me to play with them.

sorry. 

Back to the stick. I found two other sticks because the first one didn't really picked my beauty knob lol. stumbled upon a rabbit hole, which gave me a Alice in Wonderland moment. I brought the two sticks into my room, though now I'm a little nervous I might’ve brought some creepy insects inside. aaaa... but, honestly, I think it looks cute! what do you think? 

pancake

My mom made 50 pancakes for my dad's birthday party,,, so cute
This is what my pancake looked like, I put date syrup on it ! Delicious ! 
Every Sunday should be pancake day no?

Monday - Tuesday - Wednesday - Thursday - Friday - Saturday - Pancakeday 

Actually, what happend to those little pancake cabin shops (i hope you know what i mean)? those cottage restaurants with rustic oakwood interiors, soft lighting, hot chocolate with whipped cream... I hate whipped cream, it's disgusting. I think they're extinct... It's a tough one.

omg I loved going to the 'pannenkoekenhuisje' ... I remember going there and my mom putting her gloves on my feet because I was so cold from being outside. It sure looked funny! Now, I'm not sure if it was in Belgium? Maybe it was in Germany or ? ... well, what does it even matter ... 

Open up a pancake cabin! Crêpe sucrée et salée s'il vous plaît!