Stay wild, stay you

Coucou la team,,, 

I woke up in my old room this morning, hoping my train to Paris would get cancelled...
Idk... maybe it was the first time I actually preferred staying in bxl over going back?
I sometimes forget how whole you make me. 
Could also be because Lieve was talking cute-morning-gibberish and I just wanted to crawl back into bed. 

It’s time to lock in.

I need to plan what I’m going to do with my life… yes… again,, a year ago feels like yesterday... : 

Study? or Work? 

Brussels? or Paris? 

Sweet? or Salty?

Croissant? or Pain au choc?

Journal the anxiety? or Scroll for 2 hours?

Cry or Romanticize? (same thing tbh) 

High school teacher? or Clown?

Pétanque? or Bowling alley (in the basement)? 

Little roommate rant intermezzo::::

It’s getting insane.
He sent me the most manic reply last week (most of you read it, but I won’t put it online because I’m 'decent' lol). It’s just way too much info and omg, so much self-pity.

Anyway. His little brother (30) is here and ... guess what .. he also has women problems. These men… like cmmon lads... get ur shit together. It’s driving me insane!! 

At first I was like, “ok tea, tell me everything,” but now it’s just getting sad..... Men… so so stupid.

I listen but stopped responding. 

Btw my coloc calls him Fucktard and I think it's genius,?? using this word from now on. fucktard. 

End of roommate intermezzo 

Feeling that Gemini energy?
I’m ready to leave my 24th year behind and start my 25th. I feel like my frontal lobe is almost done developing. You have no idea what’s coming..... neither do I ... but I do know you should listen to Phil Collins’ Another Day in Paradise more often....... you’ll see...... 

Stay wild, stay you 

On se capte bientôt! 

Bissouus 

#sam

@leuvenstation

Life lesson: .....

Coucou la mif, 

Its' spend money Friday! Are you spending? I am (early birthday gift pour #moi) 

Another blog where I talk about myself... c’est parti.. 

Recent / current/ future events: 

1. I've been having the most vivid dreams this week...  always right before I wake up.
And not the cute kind... they're all about me or my family dying. Like, this morning? I accidentally poisoned my whole family and myself... with my magnesium supplements... in the garden... wtf, right?

In the dream I kept not believing it, so I was stuck in this weird in-between state, trying to find a way to fix it or idk... I've been listening to sound bath playlists in the morning to calm my anxiety.

2. So, Romeo (my coloc) loves chicken and fries and I’m not going to say no to that.

He always tells me he hates wasting food yapayapayapa.... but valid, me too. obv :) 
So after dinner he puts all my chicken bones on his plate, checks if there’s still meat on them, and then nibbles my already nibbledchicken bones. ....  At the table, I didn’t really think much of it… I mean, not many things gross me out .... you really have to surprise me. :o 

But back in my room, alone with my thoughts, it hit me: that was actually kinda scary... ew, no?? 
Like… I don’t even know this man. We’re total strangers to each other. But still… idk.
Let me know what you think? Of this..... 

3. Last Saturday, my bracelet fell off my neighbours <3 Manon & Henri’s terrace. I went down to look for it. First, a bit of context: The building opens with a code, and once you’re through the first door, you can ring the apartment you need to get to. My phone was connected to the speaker upstairs +  for some reason I also left my ballerinas there, so I was barefoot…

Ok.... So I came downstairs and saw my bracelet, just on the edge of the sidewalk. I couldn’t reach it because I had to keep the door open because the code was on my phone. I spotted some 16–18 yo humans (in tracksuits and gucci attire) a few meters away soo I shouted..... "Eellooo! Vous pouvez m’aider s’il vous plaît !!! J’ai fait tomber mon bracelet!":(((( lol 

Just as I reached the guy’s hand holding my bracelet, I turned to go back in… and the door shut......
So there I was .... at Gare du Nord .... barefoot, in the middle of the night.
I can’t remember how long I was stuck there, but I felt every stare and heard every comment about my bare feet… and honestly..... they were right.

Anyway, one of the neighbors came home. Thank god. and for some reason I felt obligated to explain my situation but obviously he didn't care and just wanted to go in his apartment... 

I woke up ashamed the next day… fr… and I still think about it once maybe twice a day. 
I’m actually not kidding. You don’t know how it was down there... I need(ed) a hug 

4.  I went to Sacre coeur and it smelled like poop 

5. I love biking 

6. Going to see Toxe and New York tonight for the 12345 time (means I party a lot but whats new) 

7. Very excited for next week xxx 

Plein de love! biz 

 late night email from my 'boss' : I cried 

How is your brain doing?

Cc beautiful people, 

How are you? How have you been? Still alive and happy? 

Quel weekend right...? 

I'm feeling okay (mentally)! But wow .... no energy left. My body is so so sore… I need someone to walk over me, like actually fold my back in two... like a camping chair...  you get the feeling. Also.... I think someone bit me? Did someone bite my shoulder?... If so, please .... don’t do that anymore.... +  I’m still pulling black crumbs out of my nose… sorry.... but omg I had a blast ! I <3 you guys ! ur amazing . 

Yesterday, I left my crazy brothers’ and chosen sister’s mansion to take the train back to civilization (Paris). Suddenly the metro stopped running and everyone had to get out… I had already left a bit late and only had 20 minutes left.
As some of you know, I don’t do well in traffic. (Context: I’m really bad with directions and get easily distracted, so I usually don’t bike alone in the city.) This time I had no choice.... So there I was, riding like a chicken without a head through the city with two giant bags, dirty festival jeans, and muddy boots, trying to catch my train. Serpentskirt by Cocteau Twins was playing and it made it all so much more dramatic. 
I made it. Alive. No accidents.  So honestly, this means I can do anything now. It felt like I was going to throw up… but also like a boss. 

I genuinely can’t wait for my first Parisian road rage moment.... when I slam my hand on the roof of the car and say my first insult en français :) lol 

Anywayyy... I’m supposed to meet a girl later today for drinks. I’ve never met her in my entire life… but I think I’ll have to cancel because I’m so tired I might go non-verbal in a couple of hours.

It’s one of those days where I just want to lie flat on the ground all day .... Horizontal...  in my room, or in a park on the grass, idc where, just not my bed. I need a slightly hard surface.... maybe watch some TikToks? My feed is actually amazing right now, I’m literally lmfao.

What else…
Oh! I have a new favorite song. Actually two. Or maybe three. I could share them

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Well, this is what's going on in my head rn.... I hope everybody survives this week... you're not alone... 

Dikke kus xxxx 

old picture because my Icloud stopped updating 
and I miss Lieve

need